2 years later.

It’s just frustrating… When you thought you would know what you wanted by now.. And here you are. Still sort of lost, and looking for the perfect opportunity to finally gain back some of your sanity. It’s hard to make something work that feels so wrong, that makes you sad and miserable because it’s what you feel like everyone expected you to do. 

When you wake up in the morning, you’re not happy and you have no motivation to go to class or to do any of your work and you just feel like you are wasting your time. To the point that you feel guilty for the fact that you even bothered. But I guess finding yourself takes time. Some people find themselves faster than others. I kind of envy them. 

People understand but they don’t really understand… You feel alone most of the time, even when you’re not physically. But you just have to believe that things get better. There is happiness to be found out there somewhere.